Thursday, December 29, 2016

Still Here. It Still Sucks.


Whoah. I've been in a serious, year long funk since returning to land life. Back to work. Back to the grind. Back to (my old) reality. And let me tell you, it's been R.O.U.G.H. I miss the freedom of not being on a schedule, the excitement of uncharted waters (for us) and new towns and the FRIENDS...good God I miss the friends we made along the way and those that I know we missed the chance to meet when we returned home.
At least we got to see these two a couple times this summer!
Pic stolen from Mangoes, Marley and Mermaids
I've read about others' experiences when returning to land and maybe they just really sugar coated it or maybe I just underestimated how intense that adjustment actually is (or didn't want to believe it), but let me tell you, it.is.hard. it took me months just to be able to go back and look at photos from our trip and another couple months to not cry when I did. And not like shedding a single, glistening little tear of sadness either, more like nuclear meltdown, wanna-curl-up-in-the-fetal-position kind of sadness. Just ask Ron how many times he came home to me having a good cry fest while looking at pictures...curled up in the fetal position.

To be honest, it's still hard a year after our return (WHAT?!?!). Sometimes I'm angry. Sometimes I'm embarrassed. Sometimes I wish I would have put my foot down and crossed to the Bahamas. But I didn't and here I am. Thankfully we made enough friends still living the life that I can go shack up with them to get my cruising fix, Spring-ish can't come soon enough for me!

Ron, on the other hand, is happy as can be to be back at work, living on land, finding even more hobbies and making money. Which only makes me a little bitter want to snuff him out with a pillow while he sleeps about every other night or so. Could be worse.
By the time she gets launched it will have been a
YEAR AND A HALF since she touched water. Sorry HB!
Don't worry, I fully intend on getting my revenge this spring when the boat projects begin again and during the summer when we sail the crap out of HB! Just reinstalling the bimini frame and having the new rigging installed (<- done by the marina btw) and Ron was already sick of the boat again. Too bad, so sad, the boat and I are kind of a packaged deal now. Besides, it's not like I need him to take the boat out, heck, I can do that. It's the getting back in that might be sketchy but that's what insurance and fenders are for, am I right?!
Can't wait to try out the new rigging!

In the meantime, I've developed what some might call an 'unhealthy' addiction to sailing vlogs on Youtube, and boy are there a lot out there, more than enough to occupy my time. In fact, I've been thinking that maybe I'll try to compile a vid here and there from our summer travels with that handy little GoPro that we've used oh...once. That should be a fun little train wreck to observe from afar. You're welcome.

Anyway, sorry to leave the blog hanging like I did, this moving back to land tends to really knock you on your a$$ for a while.

8 comments:

  1. Ohhhhh, my poor Jackie! Now I kind of want to snuff out Ron with a pillow too, knowing he cut your cruising dreams short. You're welcome on our boat for a visit ANY time, and who knows, in 2017 we may even get it in the water! Hugs and kisses, I miss you!

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    1. To be fair it was a joint decision to come home. He would have kept going if I really wanted to. Get that boat in the water and I may need to come visit!

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  2. Your land loving friends are kinda glad
    you're home. But will say it's bitter sweet, traveling to exotic places to see you would have been alright. I'm not sure I am much help snuffing Ronnie out, however I can't take him off your hands for a few days while you take the boat for spin around the dock. No matter what 2017 is a new year and new adventures await.

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    1. Okay, okay, friends at home are a perk of being back...did I forget to mention that in my whine filled, Debbie downer post?!?! Oops 😉

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  3. We hope that someday you get to roam aimlessly about the Caribbean islands. There are times when we have come close to packing it in but luckily the good days still keep coming often enough to keep us going.

    Mark and Cindy
    sv Cream Puff

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    1. Thanks!Thankfully we have good friends to supply our wandering needs for a week at a time. And time to stock that kitty up again 😉

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  4. Oh my! Why am I the only one who looks like a retard in a bike helmet? LOL! We're so glad we got to spend time with you guys (and Lexie of course!) this summer and can't wait to see you when you come visit us in the Bahamas (with or without Ron, lol!). Love you guys!

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    1. Uhhhh, you don't! Did you miss the nice pimp lean on mine?!? Haha, miss you guys tons, can't wait to meet up and get my boat fix! Luv and hugs!

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