Thursday, December 29, 2016

Still Here. It Still Sucks.


Whoah. I've been in a serious, year long funk since returning to land life. Back to work. Back to the grind. Back to (my old) reality. And let me tell you, it's been R.O.U.G.H. I miss the freedom of not being on a schedule, the excitement of uncharted waters (for us) and new towns and the FRIENDS...good God I miss the friends we made along the way and those that I know we missed the chance to meet when we returned home.
At least we got to see these two a couple times this summer!
Pic stolen from Mangoes, Marley and Mermaids
I've read about others' experiences when returning to land and maybe they just really sugar coated it or maybe I just underestimated how intense that adjustment actually is (or didn't want to believe it), but let me tell you, it.is.hard. it took me months just to be able to go back and look at photos from our trip and another couple months to not cry when I did. And not like shedding a single, glistening little tear of sadness either, more like nuclear meltdown, wanna-curl-up-in-the-fetal-position kind of sadness. Just ask Ron how many times he came home to me having a good cry fest while looking at pictures...curled up in the fetal position.

To be honest, it's still hard a year after our return (WHAT?!?!). Sometimes I'm angry. Sometimes I'm embarrassed. Sometimes I wish I would have put my foot down and crossed to the Bahamas. But I didn't and here I am. Thankfully we made enough friends still living the life that I can go shack up with them to get my cruising fix, Spring-ish can't come soon enough for me!

Ron, on the other hand, is happy as can be to be back at work, living on land, finding even more hobbies and making money. Which only makes me a little bitter want to snuff him out with a pillow while he sleeps about every other night or so. Could be worse.
By the time she gets launched it will have been a
YEAR AND A HALF since she touched water. Sorry HB!
Don't worry, I fully intend on getting my revenge this spring when the boat projects begin again and during the summer when we sail the crap out of HB! Just reinstalling the bimini frame and having the new rigging installed (<- done by the marina btw) and Ron was already sick of the boat again. Too bad, so sad, the boat and I are kind of a packaged deal now. Besides, it's not like I need him to take the boat out, heck, I can do that. It's the getting back in that might be sketchy but that's what insurance and fenders are for, am I right?!
Can't wait to try out the new rigging!

In the meantime, I've developed what some might call an 'unhealthy' addiction to sailing vlogs on Youtube, and boy are there a lot out there, more than enough to occupy my time. In fact, I've been thinking that maybe I'll try to compile a vid here and there from our summer travels with that handy little GoPro that we've used oh...once. That should be a fun little train wreck to observe from afar. You're welcome.

Anyway, sorry to leave the blog hanging like I did, this moving back to land tends to really knock you on your a$$ for a while.